i feel guilty.

i am actually completely embarassed and i don't find it funny at all.
i probably should considering the circumstances but i'm not.
i feel guilty.
completely guilty.
that wasn't me. what was i doing?
i don't want to be viewed as that.
yes. i do care how people see me. i have stated that before.

i know. i know.
it "happens". i've heard it before.
but never again.

let's all just move on. please?
i am not down.